Sometimes the past seems so inescapable. I hate that its there whenever someone wants it. and I hate that my brain allows me to even think of it knowing how it makes me feel. I’m really happy in the present. Everything is really good. I like myself now more than I’ve ever liked myself. I like the way things are and how everything has played out so far. Im not sure why humans like to torture themselves with things and people who don’t matter anymore. I’m not sure why living in the present is so difficult.
I don’t know. I’m in a mood. I just wish certain things would just go away. I wish we didn’t have the technology to find things we know are gonna upset us. I wish everything wasn’t so attainable. I just wish I could remember the things that don’t matter and the the things that do. Because if I could do that, I’d never be unhappy.
I love my boyfriend.
Very quickly turning into one of those anti-social networking people. One of my good friends once told me that it’s not normal nor is it okay for people to have access to so much of your life. Whether it’s present or past. And I definitely see that now.
May or may not be deleting my tumblr soon.